I have been trying to pass this interpreting certification test for the past 3 (or so) years. I have taken the test some 10 (or so) times. I took it again about 2 weeks ago. There are 5 parts to this test and I have passed 4 of those 5. I have until the end of October to pass the final part, when my current certification lapses and I will no longer be able to work as a sign language interpreter.
Needless to say, I think about these facts at least one time every second of every day. I visualize joyous celebrations after receiving positive results. I imagine myself calling, or more likely texting everyone I know to tell them the great news (in all caps)! I daydream about a trip to Hawaii, graciously given to me by Brett's parents as a congratulatory gift. I think about the moment I read my results and it sinks in that I will never have to take that test again!
However, there are times when I begin to let myself think about what will happen if I don't pass. And I think about the feeling I have when I realize that I have failed and all the work I have done and all the time I have spent will be for nothing. But I can't think about that often, because it would paralyze me.
This test, honestly, is a bigger deal to me than my Masters degree. This is what I have been working toward since the time I took my first ASL class in 2001. I had a teacher ask me recently what I would be doing now if I weren't an interpreter. The question freaked me out. I love interpreting. I want to interpret for the rest of my career. This is what I do.
Okay, so my point is to ask everyone reading my blog to send their positive energies my way. I have a good friend who likes to ask those people important to her for prayers when she's feeling overwhelmed. I figure it can't hurt, right? So I'm asking for mental help right now. When I was preparing for this last test, I had 2 affirmations for myself: "I have many options available to me"; "I am prepared to accept whatever turn my life takes". Whatever happens, I will be fine. I will move on and keep doing whatever I need to do in order to live a fulfilling life. I can sit and think rationally about this situation and know that I will be happy no matter what happens. But I really super duper badly NEED to pass this test. So if you could please send me support in whatever form you feel--affirmations, prayers, thoughts, money, songs, etc, etc.
I will let you know as soon as I do how it all went. (suppress the panic induced hyperventilation) I am calm...I am calm...
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YOU WILL PASS. And duh you will do well whether you pass or not. I will pray and send any positive energies I have available. The harder it is the better you are for going through it! I love you. POSITIVE ENERGIES TO YOU>
YOU can do it. You CAN do it. You can DO it. You can do IT! Many positive energies are on your way.
Positive energies!
We are all rooting for you!
You have the skills- just a matter of proving it to those raters ;)
Have you tried making a mind movie? (that's our new thing) It's an incredible affirmation tool! Let the law of attraction work to your benefit in the easiest possible way. :) I'm sure you'll do GREAT, and I'm sure you'll PASS!!
*Positive thoughts and energy*
Betsy my dear Betsy, all the love, support, optimism, and prayers are all yours!!!! :) I have seen you interpret many a time and lets face it, you have the the skills. Taking the test multiple times is a frustrating process, and that in itself can psyche you out for sure. I do pray for you often, and i will continue to do so:) I can hardly wait for a text, a phone call, hawaii, a big manilla envelope, your name in print on uip.org, congratulatory texts, emails, phone calls, screams and tears!!:) Oh my goodness i can hardly contain myself right now!!!!!!! :)
it is a big deal, it was way bigger than my degree too, way bigger than anyone could have thought, i hate having conversations with people that i have to listen to 'so what will you do if you dont interpret?' i want to scream! its a hard thing for others to grasp when you've worked so dang hard!
but-at the same time, you do have to remember, (as i often do as well) that it does NOT determine where your skills are, where you've come, and definitly, most definetly who you are!:)
love you dear:)
You totally have the skills! Sorry it's so frustrating proving it to the raters... but YOU CAN DO IT! Better than that, you WILL do it! I know you WILL! You have done many hard things in the pass, and you can do this!
You are an amazing person, you are strong, creative, smart and hard working! I know because I've seen you be all these things. Keep going, it'll happen!
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